Just Realize

Here I'm in the middle of the night
Alive but feel not too good
Realize that I'm all alone
And trying to convince myself that I'm not
I don't know why it becomes too difficult for me to convince myself
I'm not a stupid girl, I know almost all things
But why my knowledge can not make me understand what happen with my life

I'm far away from the people I love
Far away from the place where I belong
Far away from all my routines
Far away from You
I know it, You know it
But I have no power to change it

Sometimes I feel that You are not fair to me
You give everything to others, but You never consider about me
I think that I deserve them, but I never have them


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Fortunately, after those hurted processes
I finally & totally realize that it's not true
You already gave me what I need on the best and perfect time
And everything I haven't have yet doesn't mean that I don't deserve it
Once again, it's just a matter of time

About way apart, it's not Your fault, it's mine
You never move an inch from me, wherever I go
I'm the one who run away kilometers from You
But my run can't make me disappear from Your sight
I know You are always keeping eyes on me

Thank God

Saturday, September 19, 2009 at 10:21pm